Roll my troubles & pour my doubles,
I'm back to work,
From the rubble & the ash, we birthed a better bird,
Fiendin' Phoenix,
Boy, since a fetus I've had my feelings hurt,
Know they wan' delete us,
Please, Jesus, give me a better church,
All I need's the word(s) to tell her she all I ever need,
She my rib,
I'm her lungs,
She all I ever breathe,
When we met, I was young & at a lesser speed,
Still my pedigree was D-O-G in the height of heat,
Played some hide & seek with my God, she got a better peek,
Now I'm living in awe when she on top of me,
How it got to be,
I was drawing something the world should see,
She came up to me like, "I think you gon' wanna talk to me,"
Took me to her corner & borderline hit the 3rd degree,
Carving out her way to some hidden treasures in muddy seas,
Ignoring the fact that I'm on her eyes, then on her D's,
Chuckling like, "why do you get so nervous when you with me?,"

(Nah it's not even like that,
I'm chillin' forreal,
I'm chillin')


Know my palms sweat,
She took my hand like, "you good with me,"
Walked around the city for hours like, "let me show you scenes,"
Took me to a spot where the whole city looked make-believe,
Looked me in the eyes & said she gon' be what she be in dreams,
Said the world is petty, but pretty in ways not many see,
Said her heart is heavy, cause in love is what she wanna be,
Not just with a person or with a man,
She wanna be in love with herself & where she stand,
Wanna see, way more of the world than where she been,
Asking me, if I believe in anything more than me,
I'm talking like,
"I believe the world is my enemy & my energy,
I believe that love is my destiny & my ecstasy,
I believe that something about us was meant to be,
But I be thinking people don't like it when I speak honestly,"
She said, "Boy, that's prolly the dumbest shit you done said to me,
Don't say you the man, then hide your hand,
You better be, in love with yourself 'fore you take my hand,
I'm trynna see, confidence & health in my leading man,
The movie that I'm making out of life ain't for Peter Pans,
I'm trynna be, bigger than the moment we living in,
But still have a hand in the moment my living ends,
Even if I don't, that is not where my heart dies,
I will speak my wants, cause I won't let my heart lie,
I will live in truth, let the magic & sparks fly,
And if they got a problem, tell 'em say it or let it die,
You wonder why my name in your brain got glue stuck?,
Cause everything I do around you is my true love,
I tell you what I think, and I pick your brain naturally,
Til everything you think is an afterthought after me,
And every time I see you, you be breathing more comfortably,
Especially when I'm in your ear, telling you 'cum for me,'
The day you can't be honest, is the day that my love will leave,
I promise you,"
Hands sweating harder,
The glow around her done got a hue,
Purple lady made me say,
"Baby, I'd never lie to you,"
She said,
"Oh I know, cause I'd kill you for even trying to,
But it's more important to me that you never lie to,
Saying you got plans to rip & run with the big ones,
I don't hear you saying you got the bunnies for big jumps,
You be in this pussy all big, bad & bold,
But the last tape that you dropped is years old,
We too young & too old to not try,
I help you out on any mission, except suicide,"
Almost cried,
Lucky the rain started to flow,
Then she started laughing like, "look, I got the control,"
I'm laughing too, like, "nah, you outta control,
And you got a point,
But look, baby we gotta go,
When my stories told, I promise it's good as gold,
From friend & foes,
They'll say Relly was living soul,
I'm in a mode,
With no doubt running the show,
And my ESPN saying I gotta stay in the zone,
The day I lose my home & my heart is the day I'm losing you,
The day I lose my soul is the day that I run away from truth,
I got something bumpin' I promise that I'll be dropping soon,
And when I do, I bet you my name be breaking news,
And when I do, I bet you that I be breaking through,
Reaching out for happiness,
Bet the hand that I grab is you,
Looking at my life,
I've been thinking the missing piece is you,
Cause when I'm missing you,
I'm missing meals & sleep too,
All I wanna do is be with you & ride for you,
But I be forgetting the other one in my mind with you,"


(And that be the part that be fucking me up, you know?

I'm just trynna do better)


Then she gave me something that's honestly hard to scribe,
A fire in her eyes that was gentile yet alive,
A sliver hold of hope that there was truth within my lines,
I can manifest success & do my best to stay beside,
But still a subtle frown of doubt that this could be a lie,
And that the man of many dreams could be the man of her demise,
Staring at me, trynna see the future with her mind,
Seconds die in silence til she kills me with the line,
"If you gon' really be the man, become your own & then be mine"